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:thumb74620524:Oh God. Ow. Christ.
The RSI's come back. I can barely move my hand - it's almost completely numb right now. I don't know how it happened so fast. Some people think it might be stress, but all I know is every time I pick up a pen I get this shooting pain down my two middle fingers and my whole arm tingles like crazy.
FUCKING RSI - It took me a year to get rid of it last time.
I'm not gonna stop drawing. I'll have to get another wrist cast/support thing - but the doctor said that as long as I wore one of those it should be OK to draw. Dammit......
I'm OK otherwise. It's just.... you know. One thing after another - the drawing and the comic were like, the ONE good thing that was keeping me cheerful. Plus I tell people why I have a bandage on and they're all like: "get a real injury" and that just eats me up.
And.... I'm so worried. I just dropped two subjects so I could focus on getting good grades in art. What am I gonna do if I lose my hand??? How the hell am I gonna survive? Or go to college? I already cut myself off from any other option I have - so if I can't do that I'm just gonna...... fade into obscurity, right??? I can't do that. I can't.
Jesus. If you haven't guessed by now I'm a hypochondriac and a worrier. In a big way.
Please talk to me. I'm scared.
Allmylove Jess xxx
